1. |
Off Your Skin
04:33
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I don’t know how I found this place
I yearned and turned into the face
Of which I made for all these years
I didn’t know I had these fears
And when your oxygen it reaches
The surface, the color bleaches
Turns a shade I’ve never known
Was in my blood or in my bones
In my bones
All that I do not show
And my poems they all end the same
In your voice and in your name
The only way for us to win
Is if I peel you off my skin
Piece by piece and I can’t slow down
This person that I’ve learned to drown
Inside me has begun to swim
I watch you peel me off your skin
Off your skin
Where I end and you begin
And things are starting to seem normal which serves as a perfect queue
To start acting emotionally askew
And stop knowing what to do
Or how to act like a train off its track, in a way that lacks
Something stable like
An anchor or conscious, or being focused or happy or modest
And I just
Want to do right
But I’m on this self-induced plight
And I’m the only one that can save it
It’s more of an itch that I stay trying to scratch just to play this wounded role
I’ve got more songs in your name, in your name in my soul
And I don’t know how I found this place
I close my eyes and see your face
Gunpowder from a war inside
Has calmed to dust and we’re still tied
I’m bare without a stone to hold me down
And wind blows through my bullet holes
Let me go and I’ll float or sink
I loved you more than you think
Love you more,
This does not end here, I’ll love you more
Look what’s under it all
I’ll love you more
More than you think, than I know
This does not end here
I’m sorry for all that I’ve done
Underneath there’s a knot
That can never be torn
I’ve never stopped
And I’ll love you more
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2. |
Words From Your Tongue
05:16
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And there’s moments when
We both get confused
We can’t understand the ways in which we use
Use our tongue and our minds
Yeah we’re two different kinds
I just seemed to have killed something when I thought I was being kind
Yeah I thought I was being kind
But I can’t understand ya
Is every move here just in vein?
If I cannot plant a
Seed in your mind how will we gain?
So
Cut the words from your tongue (free the words)
Cut the words from your tongue (free the words)
Speak the truth to me love
I want to see your blood
Take another swig
Or another hit
It’s all relative
What we’re seeking now may have gone
But we could find something new (something new)
A new ground that is true
To stand on, if we understand both who we are
Who we really really are
But I can’t understand ya
Is every move here just in vein?
If I cannot plant a
Seed in your mind how will we gain?
So
Cut the words from your tongue (free the words)
Cut the words from your tongue (free the words)
Speak the truth to me love
I want to see your blood
And oh it grows,
It grows inside of us all
Oh and I know
I know it’s hard to fall
Fall from ourselves
Oh hail Mother Mary, I can’t help these things
I’m falling far from grace and can’t stand that place
Outside of your heart
But I can’t understand ya
Is every move here just in vein?
If I cannot plant a
Seed in your mind how will we gain?
So
Cut the words from your tongue (free the words)
Cut the words from your tongue (free the words)
Speak the truth to me love
I want to see your blood
I can’t under, I can’t understand ya
I can’t under, I can’t understand (your heart)
I can’t under, I can’t understand ya
I can’t under, I can’t understand (your heart)
Cut the words from your tongue
Cut the words from your tongue
Cut the words from your tongue
Bleed for me love
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3. |
Someday
04:20
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Someday
You say
We all die someday
I fall
Down the rabbit hole
I pray
That my skin feels like paper so I can remember
That I will degrade, disintegrate
Someday
Someday
I've told lies,
Made my mother cry,
I took the bate
That was poisonous inside
I hope hate
Doesn't crystallize over me as I get older please
Please don't forget
The light I'll trace,
Someday
Someday
Who are you to fall in love with life, who are you not to?
Who are you to fall in love with life, who are you not to?
Who are you to pay the price for your life? Who are you not to?
Who are you to not return back to this life someday?
Someday
Who are you to fall in love with life, who are you not to?
Who are you to fall in love with life, who are you not to?
Who are you to pay the price for your life? Who are you not to?
Who are you to not return back to this life someday?
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4. |
Severing the Knot
04:33
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Who taught you to be unkind?
Who showed you this trick of the mind?
You turned me off like I was a light (switch)
Pulled the plug on us leaving my love blind
Nothing to look for
What can I
What can I look for
When you’re
Heartless
How could you be, how do we be
Without heart?
In the darkness
I could not see, you built a wall
Between we
And there’s no getting in
Only severing the knot
Could it really be?
Did you finally
Make the cut?
I can’t stop seeing your face
Underground circuit of wires has been replaced
With something else and it gapes (in me)
A whole inside where the thought of you used to lay
Where the thought of you used to lay
Now you’re
Heartless
How could you be, how do we be
Without heart?
In the darkness
I could not see, you built a wall
Between we
And there’s no getting in
Only severing the knot
Could it really be?
Did you finally
Make the cut?
Ohh all this cold
And I’ve grown to know this
Soulless mechanism
And I know all along
You were guarding your heart and
I am sorry
For making you become
Heartless
How could you be, how do we be
Without heart?
In the darkness
I could not see, you built a wall
Between we
And there’s no getting in
Only severing the knot
Could it really be?
Did you finally
Make the cut?
Heartless (how could I be?)
In the darkness (you built a wall)
And there’s no getting in
Only severing the knot
Could it really be?
Did you finally
Make the cut?
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5. |
Five Years
04:53
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Walking home in the rain
All the streetlights gone out
Been a while since I felt mildly sane
One of the darker nights no doubt
And I don’t feel like tending to the needs
Of needlessly draining interactions
Just feel like tending to these
Songs in my head that serve as distractions
And tomorrow I’ll be 21
And join the society of the ‘Drinker’s Club’
Meet at the congregation at the bars in America
Isn’t it fun? Isn’t it fun
Distracting yourself
And I’m walking down that same old road again
Same heart, same eyes, same feet
Its crazy how time just evaporates, leaving us with
A mind full of memories
And I keep on keeping on searching
But I still don’t really know what I want
And I guess its good; I’ll never be done learning
And following this internal compass guiding me through this hunt
And tomorrow I’ll be 23
I guess time had its way of escaping me
I was born with something inside to set free
Deep in the sound
Look what I’ve found
Deep in the sound
Look what I’ve found
And you warned me, you warned me
You warned me, you warned me
That it would slip right through my fingers
And this year I am 25
Can I say it’s by grace that I’m alive?
I was born from the Rose
And I have grown to know my kind
And I will try to leave behind
Something divine
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6. |
Golden Mountain
03:55
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I feel the sun on my face
Never the wind
I was born on a golden mountain
And I don’t know why I was dealt this fate
Never had to ask
Being from this golden mountain
I look at the sky and I wonder, wonder where
Someone decides how we end up, how it’s fair
In a past life did I bleed?
In a past life did I kill?
In this life will I lead?
In this life will, oh will, oh will I
We’re getting stoned in the backyard
We’re getting stoned in America
We’re getting stoned in the backyard
We’re getting stoned
I feel the water
Drip down my skin
Down into the drain, yeah it feels like an endless fountain
And it doesn’t matter
If you feel pain
If you’re from the other side of the golden mountain
I look at the sky and I wonder, wonder where
Someone decides how we end up, how it’s fair
In a past life did I bleed?
In a past life did I kill?
In this life will I lead?
In this life will, oh will, oh will I
We’re getting stoned in the backyard
We’re getting stoned in America
We’re getting stoned in the backyard
We’re getting stoned
There’s a war going on outside
That only some of us are safe from
We’ve been asleep for all our lives
‘Cause we’re protected by the system
And Oh I don’t
See how we can be fine
This altruism is a lie
No one’s protected from this system
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7. |
Archetype (feat. ANML)
05:28
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Even though this phase has many phases
Even though in this one we don’t talk
Even though my mind can run to bad places
I’m trying to sharpen the knife, so I can make it cut (right)
Even though we know this to be our love language
Even though we’ve been through this before
There’s so many things inside me changing
I’m going down to meet the dark behind the door
And I don’t want this archetype
Of the sad, lost, love girl to rule me
I’ve got a wild wolf in the night
Running, Running through me
Please don’t let me catch you, catch you, catch you
I’m not ready to break
Break this down
And I just want to love you, love you, love you
I’m not ready to lay
Lay this down down
I’ve played the villain and the damsel in this baby
How could we ever know that there were other roles?
And all this time the beast and I inside were not facing
I want to look her now in her soul
And I don’t want this archetype
Of the sad, lost, love girl to rule me
I’ve got a wild wolf in the night
Running, Running through me
Please don’t let me catch you, catch you, catch you
I’m not ready to break
Break this down
And I just want to love you, love you, love you
I’m not ready to lay
Lay this down down
Together we have grown
Into the patterns that we know (Is that love?)
Slowly we’re shedding the skins of our past to find
This time
Our hearts are unbroken and wild
So run girl wild
And I don’t want this archetype
Of the sad, lost, love girl to rule me
I’ve got a wild wolf in the night
Running, Running through me
And I don’t want this archetype
Of the lost little girl to rule me
I’ve got a wild wolf in the night
She’s running, (she’s running)
Running through me
Please don’t let me catch you, catch you, catch you
I’m not ready to break
Break this down
And I just want to love you, love you, love you
I’m not ready to lay
Lay this down down
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8. |
Interlude
00:53
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9. |
My Own One
04:19
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It’s a road
No it’s a path I’m walking on
And I’m alone
No I’m just on my own one
It’s a tone
That strikes out inside when I’m aligned
I’ve been here before
Your body knows where you’ve spent time
And I dreamed
In these scenes
And it feels
Just as real as I believe
And it’s my life
It’s all that I was born to do
This feeling’s mine
Your interpretation belongs to you
And I know we’re all waiting for the oracle to come
Dressed in cloaks of black with its magical thumb
And I don’t know what my past life-self has said or done
But I’d like to thank her for it all
For it all
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10. |
Proverb
02:48
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Tell me a proverb and I’ll tell you how I relate
Lately my peripheral vision only goes straight
These days I’ve spent walking but I’m not sure if I’ve got the right
Kind of shoes for this kind of hike
And my toes they’re all starting to web
From swimming around in the puddles in your head
And I’ll be a diver trying to find it deep down inside
That holy thing that don’t fade with time
Oh I’ll find it
The open mind it calls
Behind your words there’s life and
I am sold
Tell me your story and I’ll hold it up to the sky
I want to see what gets exposed in the light
And I’m trying to learn, I’m trying to learn the meaning behind
This magical thing, this gripping life
Oh I’ll find it
The open mind it calls
Behind your words there’s life and
I am sold
Surround yourself with that which you know to be good
And things will come into your life as they should
And I’m trying to find it now
(To be found, to be found, to be found)
And Oh I’ll find it
The open heart it calls
There’s so much life inside this
I am sold
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11. |
Lost
04:40
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The choices I’ve made confuse me
Getting back to myself takes time
And I’m lost and I don’t know what to do with me
Yeah I’m lost but I know that I’ll be fine
Yeah you really know you got through to me
I caught something there inside
And I’m gone inside of something new to me
Yeah I’m gone but I know that it takes time
And oh
You don’t even know babe
You don’t even know babe what you’ve done
When you come into my life
And oh
You don’t even know babe
You don’t even know where we could go
If we just give up on the fight
The choices I’ve made they confuse me
I try to give in and lose every time
And I’m lost inside of something new to me
And I’m lost but I know that it takes time
And oh
You don’t even know babe
You don’t even know babe what you’ve done
When you come into my life
And oh
You don’t even know babe
You don’t even know where we could go
If we just give up on the fight
I didn’t think I was like this
But I like this
(I didn’t know, I didn’t know)
I didn’t think I was like this
But I like this
(I didn’t know, I didn’t know ya)
And oh
You don’t even know babe
You don’t even know babe what you’ve done
When you come into my life
And oh
You don’t even know babe
You don’t even know where we could go
If we just give up on the fight
And oh you’ll never know babe
You will never know just what you’ve done
When you come into my life
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12. |
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Can we make a whole
Piece
If we put we ourselves together
If we go digging for gold
Can we meet somewhere in the center
I want to know our future
I want to see the things that we can do
Wish I could give in to your spark
Without fusing into you
‘Cause we’re both
‘Cause we’re both
‘Cause we’re both
‘Cause we’re both
We’re fractions of ourselves
I don’t know how to love you whole
‘Cause I’m missing myself
Think I’m missing the piece that lets me love
I want to taste the sunlight
I want to hear the sound that it makes
In the songs that I write
For you
‘Cause we’re both
‘Cause we’re both (fractions of our)
‘Cause we’re both
‘Cause we’re both (fractions of our)
I start where you end
Like ouroboros
Divide “us” by “we”
Devotion is the quotient
Your love’s a bird’s eye view
Of all I’ve done to cope with
Being alone until you
Loosened the wheel on my doom
Slowed the march to my tomb
My gratitude for that
But who am I without you?
Well, I’m still learning that
I’ve got a whole lot to do
And you can’t be in the room
While I’m redressing my wounds
Only got so many moons
To try to match the tides with
Follow my own light
In the night time
When the moon is silent
And when the loon is crying
I sit to hear the sooth the truth says
Trying to save my mind
My soul so long in the tooth
I’ll start where I think I have time left
‘Cause
I took a picture of myself
But didn’t know the subject
I mean, objectively I know it’s me
But didn’t love it
Second impression seen reflectively
It’s my opponent
And we both benefit from your support and oxytocin
So
I need a moment by myself to make these fractions whole
I know you know it but it’s not what you were hoping for
Know you believe that I’ll be better for it afterward
You salt the property with she might not come back for sure
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